was reminiscing.

begin (acapella); TVXQ
trying to finish reading; boys and girls.

I was thinking. I remember when I was in fifth grade, I think it was. Summer camp. Why do I remember this like it was yesterday?

Uh. Bunch of friends and I were hanging out in the park on the swings across the camp. With the guy that I liked at the time. Mmm, I remember we started talking about crushes and stuff. He tried to get me to tell him. With little threats of, "I'M GOING TO RUN AROUND THE PARK WITH MY SHIRT OFF SCREAMING IF YOU DON'T TELL ME."

...yeah. So, I lied, told him anyway. I still remember the look on his face. A mixture of wtf?! and really?! Then he said, "But no one has ever liked me..."

Know what I said? "SO WHAT DO YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT." And all he did was smile and shake his head.

...ER. I always love looking back on that. I miss him. I know it's random. I remember the only reason why I went back to camp years after that was in the hope that I'd see him again. The year after that, he never came back.

I cried for a good hour the last day of camp when I got home because I knew I'd never get to talk to him again. I still think that he was the one that was calling me months after. I should have picked up the phone.

There's a chunk of me you never knew about, huh? Stupid fifth grader. Reading brings back memories.

i'm jaded.