past midnight dreaming.

kurumi; Mr. Children

I don't think I've prayed so hard in my whole life. I love you, please don't do anything stupid. Really.

I took a 30 minute shower and my hair dried straight for the most part. Huh. Change is good. And I was just thinking a few minutes before I'm here typing right now that I want to go to the park over break. Maybe walk to Bayonne or something and go on that hill I always go to. Or that little part near the bay that I discovered while wandering. It's pretty. I want to sit there for a good few hours and do nothing, nothing at all.

I want the wind in my face and the sun. I'm feeling so freaking melancholy, yet so relaxed and alright at the same time. It's a weird feeling. And I just spent the last 3 hours fangirling over nothing with ing and pache. Remind me, 5 or 6 more fandoms to immerse myself into. One is hard, let's see how I hold up.

I'll miss school for a week. I'd love the 'no homework!' thing back, just spend the day doing nothing but talking and laughing. I stopped and thought today, it's April. April. Two, three more months, and then I'm not a freshman anymore. How is this year going by so fast? I can still remember the first week of school so vividly.

I feel stupid. Utterly stupid. Heart, stop taking over mind. You're being irrational.

Who needs sleep when you have the internet in your room? And homework to do. ): Gah.
and yes, I really like this song.