are we destined for greatness, or madness?

a perfect day for love declaration; younha

I'm going to rave my head off. And, no, Rob and Sarah, not about damn gravy...maybe a little. I watched Hair, our school's musical production for 2007. I was, and still am awed. A little in a daze, too. Our Musical Theatre group is amazing, I can't even put it into words. They've all got this huge, huge bond with each other.

My sentimental feelings aside for now, I'll get on with the day.

We got there about an hour and a half early, so we ventured to Target and bought drinks at the Starbucks inside. I still feel awfully guilty about Rob's dad spending money on us. Got back in time to get one extra ticket and some decent seats. Hey, three rows back with two on level floor in front of us isn't bad, it's great. Since it was the benefit show, we got goody bags. Still wish we got CDs, I'd love to be listening to some of the songs right now. Can't complain. Oh, and the hallway! Blacklights, and graffiti, and missing signs. It was so amazing, I got lost in everything. Once the show started, I was glued to my seat. Their acting is amazing, it's so hard for me to believe that those are the same people that I see in the hallways every Monday to Friday. Their interpretation was meant for everyone to take it a different way, so I did. (Oh, I think shallowly. Eh. Help.)

I didn’t expect it to start out at a mental institution. (I know it sounds weird, but you had to be there.) They all portrayed their characters amazingly, and I really didn’t expect the voices out of some of them.

Let’s see: Ben’s amazing, his sobbing and singing really does get to you; Graham’s adorable, “I BELIEVE IN GOD. GOD BELIEVES IN CLAUDE.”; Caroline can belt, amazing voice; Carlos and Mick Jagger, priceless; Nia’s voice is amazing, and the shirt twisting, aha; Ruby can scream and dance…with Nick. Priicelesssssss.; Nick is freaking adorable, and I saw L in him. From deathnote.; Ariane makes a good nurse. “GWB, IRT, USA.”; Jayson liked that, he knows it. AHHHAHAHA.; Ariel’s hair was amazing and she can really, really reach high notes. Ohoho.; Aliya played her part so well. The face mask was just LOLL.; Sam = FLUSHING. Not Manchester. AHA.; Danielle just came out of nowhere in the audience, oh haha; Josie really likes chocolate.

I just had to laugh whenever Jesus or God popped up. “I bless you, in the name of the father, the son, and the holy ghost.” It’s so funny~ I really can’t explain everything, I want to watch it one more time so that everything just sinks in for sure, and I can be satisfied with it. But, at the end. I cried, or at least, tried to hold all the tears in. With a stage full of actors and actresses in front of me crying, I couldn’t help it. They’re just amazing, and they should have really sung that song to Alex. I wish I actually had the nerve to go up to every single member of MT and congratulate them. I gave a hug to Ben and Nick and Jayson. Mmm, they all did so well! I still feel bad for not doing that, I’m not a very friendly person, am I?

This is slowly going to dissolve from happy ranting to uh, ranting. Mind you.

Friday, I ended up blurting out everything to my mom. Not everything, but how I’ve been feeling, and she suspects that I’m depressed. What a coincidence, so do I! I’d love to be overflowing with sarcasm right now, but I’m not. She made me sleep instead of doing homework, and I woke up at 3 am. Meant to use the laptop, but got yelled at and just went to sleep thirty minutes later. That Saturday was good, I actually did well in piano. For once. It also seems that we’re getting the kitchen done, too. Oh well.I don’t like the way I’ve been feeling recently, and I feel as if I can’t control it anymore. It’s like once minute, I’m fine, next, I’m just down and feel like sleeping. (Like earlier, sorry.) I’ve taken to sleeping as a temporary relief from my problems. But I’m really starting to feel it, and it’s getting me down so much. I don’t know, it’s like I’d rather be in my room than outside with my friends. Really don’t know what to do with myself anymore, and I feel like I’m losing it.

Ah, it seems as my life is right out of a cliché teen novel, or something of the sort. How wonderful.

Right now, I’m looking for temporary relief. Like Saturday. Because I told my mom all of that, she suggested that the three of us get away from work and just go to the park. My dad brought his camera, and I took so many pictures. I know that I’m not skilled at photography, but I went off anyway. I like the ones of the sunset with the plane right over the orange sun the most. I really do. I think my dad was annoyed that I couldn’t get it right. I wish I brought the camera to Hair, too.

For me, I think it’ll be madness. For now.