past midnight.

timeless; jang ri in feat. xiah (is it xiah?)
sleepy

It's an un~godly hour to be awake. And I really don't care at the moment. Oh look, the water cooler just turned on. Anyway;

I was randomly clicking links and I saw that wFLforums is back, but in the same condtition. We still can't post. Really miss that place, it started my fandom up. Can't wait until it gets back, then there's the endless hours on the internet back for me. Even though that means less work getting done...yeah.

Finished my outline. While reading a few fics in the process. I'm awfully good at procrastinating, aren't I? I gave in to scanning the last section, way too lazy. Hey, it killed off a good 2 hours of typing into 30 minutes. That means more time to...do something else.

Was talking to ily earlier. I think I've got another part of me sorted out once again. Self discovery, is it called? Ah, whatever, I'm happy I know something else for sure. My bain is wracked with the disability to make choices, for the lack of not being able to find the right word to use. And after all this talk of love, I'm not done, you know. Just not ready, and I'm willing to admit that. After being irked like crazy a few times already this year. Makes me shudder to think of it. Love, love, love. Gotten tired of it eluding me a few times when I thought it was real, but finally decided to get my act together. I'll go when it's my time, damnit. I'm okay; I'll deal.

Oh, and recently, I've been developing this horrible, horrible temper. I feel bad about yelling at the top of my lungs and getting this big adrenaline rush at my dad because he didn't trust me. Again. I yelled in front of my mom, bestie, and Michael. And I've been snapping constantly at people as well. And no, it's not for a reason you may think. (Even though it might be, I really wouldn't know in my case.) Emotions are on a see-saw recently. I feel like I have some disorder or something, and it's seriously getting me down. And down. And down. Teenage angst~ go away. But we've all got to deal with it. Sorry, everyone I've yelled at. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me.

I'm freezing. Really.
Good night.