desperately

Thanks for telling me about the concert. I had so much fun last night, and got autographs and hugs from Passion and Jay. Who are extremely adorable and good singers. Everyone else was amazing, too.

Our teachers can't comprehend the meaning of 'weekend.'

All this work is ridiculous.

We got into another bus accident today, but didn't end up with a free trip to the hospital, like last year.

Ridiculous.

Did our school do something for 9/11?

I still don't want to do all this work. Freaking. Brain can't function properly anymore, and that's not a joke.

Goodness.

i miss my little baby ):

yeo hang gi - DBSK

This morning, my internal alarm clock woke me up at 6:30. Pretty hard to convince my body not to fall asleep, but then I ran to the kitchen, and found keita floating at the top of his bowl, on his side, still breathing, but having difficulty. ): Kept checking on him until I left at 7:14, and by then, he was barely breathing. It made me smile, though, when I was looking at him, and then he moved (more like twitched) a little bit when he saw me standing there. (Last night, I read that fish move when they recognize the people that feed/interact with them) And I was just going, "asdfjkl i love you too D:" It hurt to watch him suffer, my poor little baby. D: He died about an hour after I left the house.

I will miss you a lot, Keita. If you made it four more days, you would have been with us for a month. I feel guilty for not taking better care of you. ): My mommy was ready to go with me to the pet store to buy his medicine, but now he's gone. We're still going to walk down there, anyway, but I don't want to get another fish.

Everyone is at school now. Gaby loves hana kimi, and we ramble like crazy about it. Also, we do Kayashima's hand thing all the time. We are the only ones that get it, heeee.The exchange student from Shanghai was in our homeroom getting some books today. He's pretty...tall and leaning a bit towards the chubby side. Still, exchange student! Volleyball with 30+ kids does not work, unless my class steps in and takes control. We are hardcore volleyball players that make Leo's face light up with excitement. Most of them were getting ready for driver's ed, while the rest of us were still there. Then they came in, and the ball made it over multiple times with spikes, perfect serves, saves, dives (jean is the master of dives), and all that good stuff. Guttman makes our class happy, his lectures are amazing. Jefferson rambles. I am scared of Design Concepts because I can't draw and see perspective well. Japanese is going as usual. Greco is cool. There is too much homework to do. My weekend is bleeeeeh.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.19.9.17 which is12 baktun 18 katun 19 tun 9 uinal 17 kin
sup ameruoso.

"Life is divisible by two."

Keitafish is dying.
Ah, my little baby. ):
I can't have pets, children, or a significant other or something. Because I am agonizing so much and goodness.
Guilt is also there because it is my fault he is sick.

Today was fun, though. Park and whatnot with Rob, Sarah, and Joseph. All the food canceled out the walking and mild exercise. Or that is backwards. There is also too much homework.

My fish. ):

sophomoreeee

Today was interesting, to say the least. I got all the teachers I expected I would get, with a schedule that permits me to throw books into my locker as to not kill my bag.

Jefferson, Nina, Gutmann. This is going to be interesting. US I, Biology, and American Lit, respectively. I've got an I/S, too, whatever that is. Also, have no elective on schedule, might switch into Tsang's class, new asian teacher. Lots of new teachers.

Nina is cheery and will give you mean look if late. But I poked Hoa while he was talking to her so I was just going ugh wrong start. Jefferson seems kinda cool, but saying is workload is a lot is an understatement. And Gutmann, one class last year for public speaking, one day, but this will be interesting. Ms. Camp's accent is endearing. Sensei is...sensei. There's nothing to say.

The freshmen are huge. They make us look like freshmen again.

This is going to be an interesting year. Though in the morning, it feels like we were never gone.

i swear, today everyone is mourning their last day

miracle - super junior

Everyone is going through the last day of vacation mourning stage today. Needless to say, so am I. At least I've finished all my homework; just need to study Japanese (to make sure I did not forget, which I did), finish filling out those health forms (look, I can't run a mile. I can walk a mile, though. Does that count?), pack bag, and do nothing for the whole day. Can I have a week or something. It's not like this week counts or something, so I don't care. I think. Anyway, tomorrow, I'll just throw something on to wear and run down the block. But uh. What's my freaking locker combination?

I DON'T WANT TO SEEEEE THE SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOL

Atlantic City was fun. Yes, I am too lazy to recount everything for my blogger, why don't you just go to my lj or something. I AM LAZY STFU.

asdfjkl.

So i go on vacation and miss the large turning point in my fandom. KEIIIITAAASHIRTLESSSSAUGH.

Anyway. The Sheraton is like home and is pretty, I went shopping and failed to find dunks (jc here i come back to you), boardwalk has many pretty things and a prettttty asian boy at the cheese fries stand, and I like it here.

Off to exercise.

*__________* keita. now where is the footage of ryohei doing his hip rolls.

baiiiii~

Leaving for Atlantic City today. I have no idea how long we are staying. It's planned for 9/1-9/3, but we might watch this really cool looking magic show and/or not finish, so if we do that, it's going to be until the 4th.

I want to go shoppppppppping. For dunks. I need sneakers. Period. That is why we are going to the hotel that is a block away from the mall...thing. Heeeeeee.

My luggage is full. I am an idiot. My dad also said to bring keitafish. He is going to be in the hotel room. I have no idea. None at all. BUT I HAVE MY LAPTOP SO YAY

SCHOOL WHY D:

bouncing, bouncing

I'm really enjoying Coffee Prince. Albeit the fact that I am watching very slowly.

I like hanging out with Miso, Kuya, and Michael. They are an eclectic group of people put together, like somewhat of a preview for the next three years to come. Rather looking forward to it. We walked to Dunkin' Donuts, talked, ate, walked to CVP, messed around, laughed, man I love them.

Heading out to Atlantic City this weekend. What the heck my family is going to do there, I don't know.

w-inds. got the student voice award for best group again. mmm, those boys. Gotta love 'em.

arashi's new pv, song, rather, makes me feel like summer is never going to end.

it's school's turn to take control of my life again next week, and I say, not really looking forward to it.

soaked all the way down

close to you - w-inds.

Amazing time today with Rob, Sarah, and Joseph. Rob promptly got me out of my house after I finished taking a bath and everything. The four of us had a water balloon fight, with little Gio (is that how you spell his name?) coming and being our tiny 4 year old mother. All did proceed to get wet before the first balloon was thrown. And do those things hurt.

Also, I got my googims bag! It is very cute and darling and I love it.

I found Ryohei's Nikes from the Arena 37 special. http://www.sneakerhead.com/316297-141.html Apparently, the boy wears women's retros. I love him.

oh, wait a minute

Dance asdhjfk.

Yeah, sure, I was forced into taking Murakami's Jazz funk, and I danced to cabaret. Which was whore dancing. Whole new experience, goodness gracious. And the usual Bev hip-hop which I cannot remember.

I love these Saturdays. I just wish I wasn't so bad at choreography.

ducks

I really enjoy the days when I spend time with my mommy in New York. Added bonus = I am learning more about New York.

I woke up so late today, 11 to be exact, when I had yet another appointment. I am having a lot of those, really. Got ready really fast, and getting to NY wasn't bad either. I stopped at Urban Outfitters for a second when I got there. It is really nice in there, I want one of their things to put in my room. At Starbucks, I think my order was about 6-something, but the cashier lady charged me 4. I think she changed it. dies. She was talking to the people and me and not taking my order. 8D; That crumb cake was amazing, though.

Brainfreeze hurts. Got it for the first time earlier since I wasn't sure if I could bring drinks into B&N. ahhh the pain. Spent a good hour something in barnes and noble. The big manga shelf is back! Was happy and just read for a while.

My new dermatologist's office is by Central Park, it is really, really pretty. I feel like something can get done with this one, so I'll give this a try. My mom and I then walked around Central Park. That place is beautiful this time of the summer. And I love the ducks. A lot. They are so cute and they waddle close to you. Then stare at you and waddle away. cuuuuuuuute D: I was sitting by the pond for a while~

The apple store is shiny. So shiny. and iPhones are fun to play with. The way you can slide things and make calls and watch videos and guh. So coool. I also got a Ravenclaw necktie from FAO Schwartz. I like it there better than toys r us. I think. It's so new and refreshing~ For me anyway.

Sleeeeepy. And I have another blood test Saturday. god.

But the remaining days of my summer are going well. I am content.

jimmy, jimmy, jimmy, jimmy, swoop.

Today was loads of fun, didn't really realize how much I miss the insanity of OLM. I miss those ten years, you guys~

Happy way belated, miso! Told you I'd run in the sprinklers. Hee~

It was her party at Bayonne Park today. Got there, late as usual. Almost fell down walking up the hill, hung out with everyone~ Then we headed over to the sprinklers, where I got so soaked. Wearing a dress. high school musical two, anyone rofl. So much fun, though. I want to go back to the park before the summer ends. Kind of strange, when I used to go all the time. Only because of camp, though. You get this feeling running in sprinklers in the sun, though. gushes. I brought extra clothes for no reason, I just dried up sitting in the sun and on the swings. The little siblings are still as cute as I remember, but Jenny has changed so much. Goodness. We hung out around the entrance because they were trying to find things, but oh god. So much fun. D:

Er. Went back, ate more, hung out on the hill again. I got pelted with acorns a few times. And saw Michael jump on Rex and smother him. ;______; Then we started playing some random games. I actually played chicka chicka boom boom. IT IS FUN. CRIES. And then something about fruit salad. Sarah and I were peach candy idek. and lol miso and oppa, 'GUAVAAAA FRUIIIT'

Then Earl and Venron come over. idk apparently HARD GAYYY! is a fruit. They have been watching too much of Japan. Then when Sarah and I lost, kuya and bern started a MANGOOO SHAKEEE/HARD GAYYY! battle and we were dying. Because it is funny watching four boys go at it, yelling and popping and crotch thrusting. SCARRING. BUT HILARIOUS. Then something about the boat is sinking, and talk and spit. Which was funny. We got spit on a few times. ):

Down at the track, we boom chicka boom boomed around the track oval. Which was so amusing. The people who were jogging got overtaken or slowed down by a group of 7 teenagers, with one leading, going, "I SAID A BOOM CHICKA BOOM BOOM" and dancing. One of the guys passing by us got so amused and went, "You're done already? BOOM CHICKA BOOM BOOM XD" And then HSM2-ed down the track. Again.

Back to the hill, more insanity, and went home. this is yet another one of those blissful days where i do not remember anything.

Well, thank you, I feel like my summer's finally started. (:

fabulous? what.

So, morning appointments will never be nice. It ended up being a really long, delightful day with my mommy. Subway, Asahiya, getting lost in Grand Central Station and finally proving my knowlege of NYC, Build a Bear, where my mom was so amused by all the clothes Kinokuniya, rain, American Eagle, eyebrow threading, and finding a shirtless zac efron on the chair in front of you at the salon.

WHAT A DAY.

It was fun, then I headed over to Kuya's house for his party. Happy beeee~lated kuya! I owe you a card. ): i am a loser. so yeah, come in to them jamming, which i have missed oh so dearly. loitered in his room on the third floor, getting ready for high school musical 2~ it wasn't as good as the first, but still, the songs are playing in my head. you are the music in me~

I missed the guitar hero and super smash melee. ): But the three hours I was there was pretty awesome.

I'm going to run through the sprinklers in the park tomorrow like a little girl. In a dress. oh god. my summer is finally here.

AHH. 100 GET.

feel the fate - w-inds.

Last algII test! Which I was flailing over for the whole night, and only studied about two hours for. Without understanding anything. I swear to god, I filled up my cheat sheet. But er. I got a 100. And my average is a 99. GOAL REACH. CRIES. Do not know but I am not asking I got a 100 asdjkafl; I kind of blanked out too, and thank goodness I realized that I had put the answer for something really tiny on the page, and the solution somewhere else. T_____T

I'M LUCKY

Tomorrow's the party, pizza, movies, and whatnot. I wanna play baseball, though I seriously cannot play for my life. Ahh, like that day I hit a double in eighth grade when the sun was in my eyes. But Dobish, why, why, are you putting me in charge. Seriously, I thought he was kidding. flails away.

I am going to miss them a lot. ):

I cannot take shiki off repeat. Well, really, now it's ftf. And Keita's hair, just to have my say in it, is really short. I like it. It's just so short. I approve of blonde!Ryu with no problem. And Ryo. stfu i know i'm sort of biased. runs away. He has all their new hairstyles up on his blog. lol riida sugoi dies.

HOMEWORK.

6 pack flabs

shinkiro - SE7EN

I am going to miss my class for suuuure now. D': Though the two more days of work is not bad at all, at least trigonometry is better than logarithms. My brain seems to think so.

Saturday, I went to Mitsuwa for their summer festival, and I am going back for sure next year. So much fun, Japan, I love you and your food, pretty boys, and other wonderful things. (: I saw a few people I knew, too. You know you attend high tech when you spot at least two people when you go out. Goodness gracious. Anyway, there's this whole detailed thing on my livejournal, sorry, I'm lazy.

I got back into the spirit of High School Musical. What with Katie bringing her Rolling Stone with a somewhat shirtless and pretty Zac Efron on the cover. :9 And I, wearing my new outfit that consisted of a white shirt with a huge electric guitar on the front got snappled. How? I picked up the Snapple can, and went to pour it into my mouth since it wasn't mine originally. I missed my mouth completely, and it poured down my right cheek, onto my shirt and my new pair of skinny jeans. AM I GOOD OR WHAT. OH EFRON.

People do not get the gmail chatting when we are sitting next to each other. idek.

I have decided to start reading Huck Finn. And I need to do vocab and other things. I have never left off my summer homework so late, really. ):

do not want ):

I have developed a dislike for circles, ellipses, parabolas, and hyperbolas. GO DIE. ): I don't like geometry, much less the analytic geometry we are doing now, but I have yet to take geometry itself. I like numbers. Not those things. My mind is so stubborn, aha.

So we've got a test tomorrow, and got to cram 2-3 chapters in 6 days. Dobish was planning some crack day with us for the last day. We suggested we take a field trip to the Target down the block. 15 kids and a teacher in Target, nice. IDEK IF HE WAS SERIOUS. We could have just raided the Chuck 'e cheeses if it was still open.

Ryohei likes Justin Timberlake. I laugh hard. But I like him too. Justin, I mean. dies.

wFLforums is going to be back soon! The good old times when the board was my family, and it still sort of is. I miss all of them. I missed the years where everything was so active, but I love it still. I seriously can't wait.

I want to get out of the countrrrrrrry.

galing~

My godsister came over randomly, and it was wonderful. She is younger than me, and now taller. ALEXA STOP GROWING I LOVE YOU. ROFL

I also hung out with Mark Friday night. I MISS HIM TOO. He's usually all asjdkl-y when I hang out with him, but he was okay that day. I haven't seen him in months. D:

AND SATURDAY WAS NICE.
Two more weeeeeks~ And then vacation again!

hello there, again

shiki - w-inds.

Eh, I haven't really blogged in a while, have I? The recurring feeling of being lazy is so bad. But bullet points make everything better, no?
- Six Flags with Jean on Friday. 14 roller coaster rides on 8 coasters. The most was 6 on Nitro, aha. Thank goodness El Toro opened later in the day, too. Er, 6 Nitro, 1 Kingda ka (in which we were going to on a second time in the front seat, but it closed because of a thunderstorm. boo.), 1 El Toro, 2 Medusa, 1 Superman, 1 Scream Machine, 1 Rolling Thunder, and 1 Batman. The Chiller's been closed since late June. I want to ride more roller coasters. Also went on all the water rides; 2 Congo Rapids, 1 Log Flume, and 1 Movietown Stuntride. I got soaked. Pretty amazing day, where I conquered my existent, yet non-existent fear of heights. Why yes, I do remember all the rides. Jean and I had so much fun. Amazing, when we were searching for one more person to come with no avail. And whole of crew, we wish you were there. We need to go again, hm?

- Saturday was an early morning blood test, which resulted in a very painful left arm for the rest of the day. Naz's party at Sarah's house. I got picked up by Rob, Sarah, Dylan, and Justin. idk, Justin just showed up. Sorry I didn't get quickly to the door. Fun day in which I ate a lot. And saw OLM people, pretty nice. Kung Fu Hustle is a lot of crack. I forgot most of it, here's another one to add to the list of parties where we do not remember anything. It was fun, though. JOSEPH OUR GHETTO BBQ CHIPS ARE AMAZING. And watching people play outside in the dark is amusing.

- Ah. Sunday I was supposed to study for a test, but I ended up procrastinating as usual. Eh, what's new. But today, we took the test first thing in the morning, and I DIED. hard. One of the two questions that I took most of my time on I got right. Surprisingly. I was facedesk-ing the whole day. No, I swear. I probably made other silly mistakes, too. I actually bought lunch today, too. And didn't pay attention to the introduction on parabolas and the 'y-k=a(x-h)^2'. EH. I took a four hour nap, too. oh life.

- I need to study my Japanese. I sit here trying to make sentences, and end up failing. Guh. At least I am now attempting my Visayan. Y/N? And tour goods? Y/N? ARGH

Last week was amazing, too. Ah. Okay. Time to catch up with everything else.

OH MY GODDDD

mugglecast episode 101

...THE CATHARSIS.

Begun at 7:50 PM July 21 2007 - Finished 8:20 July 22 2007.
Mind you, not continuously, of course. I kept taking naps and more naps. Took about 11 or 12 hours to read. Stupid brain.

This book was such a roller coaster. I love the thing so hard, I cannot belive this. First favorite book, next to OoTP and PoA. The epilogue was just horribly cute. I am sorry, kind of rushed, but cute.

I remember when I was one of the first listeners of mugglecast. I seriously was, I have all the first episodes on my hard drive. I have missed these voices so dearly, and I wonder what would be of me if I stayed with this fandom actively.

Oh, life. I feel better.

THE BOOK
THE SEVENTH BOOK

as of now, 12:31 am, including distractions, i am currently on page 232, chapter 11. started at 7:50 pm.

I WANT TO READ FAST LIKE I USED TO. 100+ PAGES IN AN HOUR. WHAT IS THIS MUTINY.

you look like a japanese second grader

ikenai taiyou - orange range (yes, again. this means i want to watch hana kimi.)

Oh, do I really?

With this new haircut, I feel so different. It's the good kind of different though, like something has been lifted off my shoulders, or something. I sort of like it.

While I was away at school, I told my parents to go searching for me. I got home to a really cute hairstyle in a little pile of pictures. At Andy's, I got the "your-hair-isn't straight" speech as usual. I didn't care. I'm happy right now.

My mom called me a second grader. My dad called me Japanese. I'm happy.
(:

now what did that mean again

ikenai taiyou - orange range

My memory loss, whoo. When I get too lazy too study, I depend heavily on my memory. Which has been failing me more recently. Oh life. Getting to the point, Algebra II math test today was pretty okay, seeing as I did a 30-minute 'i-don't-care-what-i'm-going-to-get-yet-i-still-do" study session.

I also like the conspiring about Harry Potter we do during breaks. It's relaxing.

Tomorrow, I'm getting my hair cut short. Due to my current unfortunate situation, my doctor told me to get it cut. I have another appointment in two weeks, so I hope something useful to my health comes out of this. I still don't know who to get my hair cut after, though! It's bothering me really bad, and I keep asking people, but to no avail. I'm really now leaning towards Ryohei's in his solo photobook (I'm sorry, but it's really pretty. And I love it a lot.), Maki's right now in Hana Kimi, or other things; like Teppei, or another one of Ryohei's.

I see nothing wrong with getting my hair cut like a guy's. Nothing at all.

5, 6, 7, 8~

After two and a half hours of dance yesterday, I am exhausted once again.

It does take me a while to learn choreography, so thank god it was the same routine for two classes. I start to pick it up in the second class, it's happened twice already, so I guess it's like this now. The song was pretty fun, I'd say. I'd love to get better at dance, though. And as per usual, my body is hurting. Ow, neck, back, legs. I still need to find that song, too, before I forget all the steps. It's starting to drift away from my brain.

Took the usual two hip hop classes (Bev) with Mike and Joaquin. Riana went off to take Murakami's Jazz funk class. It was more like omgjazzsexappeal. Oh, Riana.

And I saw Wade. Vaguely. cries. cries. cries.

There's a three chapter math test to study for that's tomorrow. Oh, the joy of Algebra II. Going to have to go through with the long four days again. That first week felt horrendously long.

Dear summer, I'd like to have a month back.
Love,
Trisha.

friday 13th

kawariyuku sora - w-inds.

Today is a good day. Was. Very long day, too.

1. Had to wake up early. Ick.

2. Oh, look, New York.

3. Doctor's appointment. My chicken pox vaccine hurt my arm, idk.

4. Vanessa's dumplings place. Very nice. Their siopao is the best, everything else is okay. I don't know what to think anymore because there were little shards of plastic in my mango smoothie. Oh life.

5. Barnes and Noble. What a story I have. The Harry Potter display amused me to bits. And the little 5-year-olds going, "WOW LOOK AT HOW BIG THE FOURTH BOOK IS MOMMY WOOOOW"

I am sitting in the language section, smirking and laughing at a Japanese slang book. How suggestive can those things get. I learned 983727901x ways to say [insert obscene word here]. Then some african-american guy puts a book back on the Japanese rack, looks at me, taps my shoulder, and this conversation goes underway:

Guy: Are you learning Japanese?
Me: Yes.
Guy: Are you learning by yourself or are you in a formal class?
Me: No, I'm not~
Guy: Oh, then I'd recommend this book because it helped me more than the other books did, since the format was easier to read. My boyfriend is Japanese---
Me: ...@_________@
Guy: *still talking*
Me: Oh, I am in my second year of Japanese. *still amused*
Guy: OH REALLY? (He was so genuinely interested. I die.) Then your vocabulary is probably better than mine...anyway, don't mind me! I thought you meant you were teaching yourself!
Me: Oh, no, not really...
Guy: :D Okay, don't mind me~ *waves and walks off*
Me: Bye...? LOLOLLL.

So. Amusing. I got twilight, densha otoko (eee, it is in manga form. i flail), and ouran. dazzle is mocking me everywhere i go, help me. and kare kano's last volume, i almost cried when i saw it. 21. BOOKS. cry. and were selling Hermione and Harry's wand. For 30 usd. I wanted it.

6. Stopped. Mom talked to Madz. IDK. They er yeah.

7. I was allowed to walk to Asahiya and Kinokuniya by myself. Oh, the joy. After a while at the two stores, being amused by the Single Mega-Mix being there as "new", seeing a million copies of Journey, not finding love is the greatest thing, seeing many magazines, and other things, i came back with August NEWSMAKER, Arena 37 special, and ageha cd+dvd. I AM SO HAPPY. And I got two other manga volumes to satisfy my need for shoujo. idk. i love kare kano to bits.

8. I like talking in Japanese at Asahiya.

Me: Eeto, sumimasen~ kore wa ii desu ka?
Lady: Hai, sou desu.
Me: YAY *AM PROUD OF BAD JAPANESE*
Lady: *blabbers in Japanese*
Me: *blank face*
Lady: Can you speak Japanese? (in a bad accent)
Me: ...DAMNIT.

9. My mom and I found the water fountain place hidden between 6 and 7th ave and 47th. so pretty, too bad the water wasn't on.

10. I don't know where the dance studio is.

11. i am a happy girl. goodnight, i am going dancing tomorrow.

i'll try.

stand your ground - chiba ryohei

How long it's been since I've actually listened to this song. And thanks to one of my LJ friends, I finally found proper lyrics! Thank you~ (: It makes me go all squishy inside when I read it, I love the way this boy thinks. Even though he wants to swim with dolphins. Oh, Ryohei~

I've been MIA since Monday. Since class started, I've been feeling so exhausted the minute I get home from school, maybe the second I step into the bus. Math was never this mentally exhausting. So, about an hour or two after I get home, after staring balefully at my homework, I sleep. Sleep until 11 PM, and then start those god-awful math problems. I stay up until 2, and it doesn't make me feel any better. I like math, don't I?

Mr. Dobish ain't so bad. Ain't. Haha. He has that weird sense of humor. Observe:

Mr. Dobish: *on phone*Okay, honey. Okay snookums. Okay. Bye. I love you. Bye. Bye. I love you, etc.
Entirety of class: ...what the heck.
Mr. Dobish: Okay. I have to call my wife now.
Class: ...OMG HAHAHAHA.
Mr. Dobish: Foxy brown~

I don't know. He is kind of cool, giving us less homework and stuff. I like breaks and lunchtimes where there is just our whole table of freshmen-sophomores, whatever you'd like to call us, at one table. I like hanging out with them, what a new epiphany. Company is always enjoyable, right?

Riana and I ventured around Jersey City, from Kennedy down to Hudson Mall. That place is as deserted as ever. With DQ in our stomachs, a hot day isn't so bad. It's bad all right, but not that bad. Mmm, chocolate covered waffle bowls with vanilla ice cream, hot fudge, and oreo cookies. I made that up on a whim. Crossing 440 is such a pain, too! Hey, expected from a highway, right?

We watched Harry Potter at the 4:15 show, lucky us. I cannot express my love for the movie. I swear. I can express it in capslock. But I am sleepy.

1. Luna. God. ilu. You are so dreamy and the good kind of weird and ilu.
2. idk i kinda wanna kill umbridge. her meowing kitty plates are cool, though.
3. DANIEL. MARRY ME K. be my second husband. you are so dashing~ and i wanted to see you go angsty. and when you are possessed, so much mind rape.
4. RUPERT. YOU ARE SO YEAH IN LOVE WITH EMMA HAHA. or ron in love with hermione, haha, whatever. it is so cute, it makes me cry. i miss your wtf! faces, rupert, make them come back.
5. EMMA YOU ARE A STICK. BUT STILL A GOOD LIAR AND ACTRESS ;______;
6. i'd marry the twins, too. ohohoho. english boys. on broomsticks setting off fireworks, and popping. they popped. oh god.
7. siiiiiiiirius. i miss you. why did you die that way. IDK AND HARRY WAS LIKE D:
8. voldemort. idk man idk. you make me laugh sometimes. but you are so eeeeevil. like the epitome of evil.
9. I CANNOT EXPRESS MY LOVE IN WORDS
10. though i am sort of disappointed ):

riana kept smacking me when cho and harry were making out. and we were grabby-handing at tom felton and rupert and daniel. and we both thought luna was so adorable. i will never sit next to her again. she is so obnoxious.

sal showed up out of nowhere. he is hyun-oppa. yeah. a ninja on a bike. with vanessa anne hudgens's counterpart.

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I swear I had more to say.

YAH? YAH?

peach - otsuka ai

My brain is so fried right now. Good lord, help me. I cannot deal with accelerated Algebra II 4 something hours a day. What did I get myself into?

But I will do it. Even though today I felt really stupid and forgot how to do basic math correctly and kept going, "IDK YOU GUYS." I can't stop saying idk, I really can't.

Millie, Naz, and I waited 10 minutes over the time the bus was supposed to pick us up, and we are the first stop. I dunno, it felt so long and ugh. It was sticky, too. Summer, you are too hot. The lady was U-turning around Jersey City, too.

Our teacher, Mr. Dobish, has a habit of going, "YAH? YAH?" Oh god, everyone kept laughing every time he went YAH. He is cool. but the work he gives is so ridiculous. He reads and then gives us work, when we are sitting there kind of lost, but kind of knowing what we are doing. It was chaotic. I have word problems for homework. I hate word problems. And everyone was wishing that we wouldn't do so much work on the first day, oho, were we wrong. I am very sleepy right now, though.

And Ryohei's engrish on the back of the shirt he designed last year for the THANKS concert made everyone go, 'wtf'. The shirt is comfy? I can forget the bad engrish.

It is really hot, and I am dying so hard. I want to sleep. Sleeeeeep and not do homework.

If you want to know my dream, head over to my livejournal, there's a link at the bottom of this blog. Seriously, it's funny...and lovely? In a way? And everyone I have told just goes, "kay. that is weird. but funny."

just like - that.

summer dream - dbsk

I am ti~red.

We didn't go to Meadowlands Fair, since Live Earth was today and the fair was only open to people who has Live Earth tickets. But seriously. Some of the groups I wanted to see were there at the arena. Tickets were kind of 55-83$ minimum, though.

After an hour long conversation, it resulted in a trip to Newport mall, our resort to killed plans. Well, we could go tomorow, but a ride is the only problem. Oh, well, next year.

Anyway, Rob, Sarah, Naz, and I walk to the bus stop in the heat - good god, was it hot. We got there around 1:10, maybe. So we stand around the bus stop waiting, waiting, seeing three old ladies under an umbrella and concluding that they are the four of us as old women, and rob is the fourth one in the bag. Don't ask.

So, we get a little, just a little bit impatient waiting for the bus, because we'd been waiting there for almost an hour. We decide to walk to the light rail, and since the way we were walking was on the bus route anyway, we'd take the bus if it passed. Halfway, I look back and there's the bus, stopping at a stop that we had just passed. So then we run, and I didn't lose my breath this time, I am so happy. Rob was running the farthest ahead, so he flagged down the bus, thank goodness. Peculiar, though, seeing four teenagers running ahead of a bus. The driver was pretty nice, though.

Ended up getting to the mall at 2:20. Everyone was there already, Kuya, Riana, and Sal. Headed up to the movie theater. There was an hour and a half long wait on the ITG machine, I was looking at the cards and quarters lined up. Crazy. After such a long discussion/argument-of-sorts on which movie to watch - Ratatouille (I AM WATCHING THIS EVENTUALLY T_T), 1408, Knocked Up, Evan Almighty, or Transformers, we ended up with Evan Almighty. We got into the theater 20 minutes after it started; we were buying tickets, food, and Riana and Naz ran down to CVS to buy candy and smuggle it in. Funny, too, we were standing exactly at the front of the ticket booth when it opened and we said we weren't ready. WHAT.

Pretty good movie actually. Continuous references to the Bible that I actually got were in it. Ah, good laugh with everyone though. And I ate so much in there, I only bought a box of Crunch chocolate ball things. Yum. There was so much symbolism. genesis 6:14 woo. it made me think of ms. greiner's friday religion classes, where it just focused on the week's bible readings. ahh, and those times when she went, "How do you not remember what was read yesterday at Church?!"

Head over to Babo's, bought bubble tea, mooched off rob's curly fries and dumplings. Turns out, Riana forgot her camera in the movie theater, and she and Sal ran to get it. Er. Yeah. LOL. My bubble tea was so good though, I love it at Babo's.

Then we walked around the marina for what, 1 and a half hours or something? It was nice and sunny and peaceful. Riana has a really nice picture of us that I want. Kuya and his unique way of thinking pointed out something on the New York skyline and left Naz bewildered for the rest of the day.

So then, we walked all the way around, and ended up at Kim's bookstore. So help me, they have Sam-soon, Palace/Goong/Princess Hours, and My Girl there for rent. And this other K-drama that sounds good. The box sets are $75, though! ;o; I wandered around while they looked at the cafe, and Naz and I split a spicy udon bowl. The Korean lady at the counter heated it up for us, ah. It was so hot, but really good. But I can't eat that with chopsticks anymore. I fail, aha. Kuya left, too.

Naz wanted curly fries, so we went to Arby's, lazied, went to the bus stop, and thank God it came in ten minutes. I almost fell asleep on the bus until Vi called. Ah, so nice talking to her! Kind of hard to concentrate with 5 - 4 when Sal left - people laughing and complaining that they had to use the bathroom. I had to too, honestly. I seriously need to work on my Japanese over the phone, too. LOL.

We all dropped each other off, Rob at his place, I walked to mine while the other three ran to Naz's.

it was delightful seeing everyone again. i miss them.

i have to start waking up early again. oh, how i will cherish the last two weeks of august.

i can't watch harry potter on the day it comes out. i have a freaking doctor's appointment that day. then, i have to scour Kinokuniya NY and Asahiya for Love is the Greatest Thing. Need. First. Press. Riana and I are supposed to watch it together, though! ;o;

I am really tired.

summer dream~

summer dream - dbsk

Rob pulled together one of his crazy last-minute plans last night. The whole crew - I hope Jean and Sarah can come - is going to the Meadowlands Fair together.

I'm having funnel cake. I have been craving funnel cake. And rollercoasters. And mindless games to win prizes. And crack overall. And people. And squished car rides.

I am excited. I love today's date. 07.07.07.

and the Journey tour started today, woo~ I hope they had a good first show.
\:D/

oh, really?

natsu matsuri - w-inds.

I caught the livetalk today. Granted, I kind of woke up early and got a headache, but hey, at least I didn't miss it. That really made my morning, the three of them being dorky and hyper as usual. A good hour of live fandom. You know it's going to go amazingly well when Ryohei looks at the wrong camera right at the beginning and Ryuichi does the same. Ah, Ryohei, you look so skinny. Decided against submitting a question, but I was giggling when Ryohei was staring at the laptop at reading them. Haha. It was really cute, their staff left a message for them, where the three of them responded with a collective, "EHHHH?"

Questions consisted of the HK live, Ryuichi falling on the stage and being cool about it, Ryuichi holding hands with the two to demonstrate the bodyguards (crackyyy♥), Ryohei's moustache (which reminded me of Japanese class), and other things I cannot remember.

Promotion, and then they had a game of trivia about themselves, it seemed. Ah, Keita's really a beast,
"HAI HAI HAI HAI....why'd you always pick Ryohei."
Host responded with an apparent, "Because you raise your hand slower than him."
*pouts hard, sidles over to Ryuichi and puts arm around shoulder*

Aah, amusing. Very amusing. And they'd just go raising their hands one after another to just be responded with a straight, "No." Keita jumped up at one point, and I was laughing so hard. He also kept hitting the other two. In the end, Ryuichi had 2 right - he pouted. Keita and Ryohei were tied at 5, and Keita won the huge peach. Which he devoured in less than five minutes while Ryuichi was looking on hungrily. I heard Ryu whine when Keita ate the last piece, but hey, they all ate more afterwards, anyway.

I am still looking for someone who recorded it.

I slept until 1:50, I was really tired. But I got my sticky little hands on the SMTOWN Summer Album! Eee, Under the Sea is so much love. I really just overall love the album. And DBSK's new PV, Summer Dream, is out. I was in the middle of downloading it, but then it died. cry.

I played DDR after a shower, and then finally, finally finished KH2. It took me a good 1:30 (hours) or more to finish that last 5-part battle. At level 99. I forgot which keyblade I used, I think it was Oblivion or something? Anyway, I didn't give my dad his daily dose of the local news, so he just sat down at the dining table and watched me play. At one point he asked, "Are you winning?" "Er. Yeah. ONE MORE BATTLE ;o;" It took so long, and I'm so bad at it now, haha, I kept cramping up in my hands. Uh, I got through the first part easily, but when Xemnas takes Riku and Sora only, ohohoho. I got stuck there forever since I got really slow. I also messed up the last part at a two x one with Xemnas because I couldn't get Riku over to Sora fast enough (A clone going SHIELD! and knocking you back kind of far is really annoying.) So then I died, but then got through. I love the whole ending scenes, I cried. Again. I am really happy, even though I played it kind of badly, but heck.

woke up at 11:40-ish. eh. i didn't accomplish much in the way of the list, but my fandom is good.

you, you know what? i kind of miss you. a lot. i don't know, but i have to get used to how the both of us changed, but it's kind of hard for me. i don't like change, i would rather stay resilient to all change, but that would just be lying to myself. i still miss you, though. i really do.

yosh!

peach - otsuka ai

HAPPY BELATED MASSU AND JIN. Oldies. :3

HANA KIMIIIIIIIIIIIIII.

I got the torrent yesterday, downloaded it and all, yeah? Subs got out today, and I just finished watching it about 30 minutes or so ago. I still have to get all their names down, but I love it so far! Maki makes a really good boy, yeah? Shun, as usual, is just asdfjkl as Sano. Toma Ikuta, I love you, okay? You make a good Nakatsu. Yamamoto Yusuke's character. So cute, "Your aura...is interesting."

And when there are boys running in and out of a room shirtless, I really don't know what to say. But for the first episode, it was really good, can't wait for next week. Maybe I'm being too expectant, but hey, that's just me.

So. I woke up at 12 noon today to a bowl of soup for lunch. I finished reading A Separate Peace, three books crossed off my list! Really good for summer reading, and the ending just saddened me. I cleared up about 4GB on Ryohei, and then I walked with Mommy to Pathmark since she wanted cherries really bad. We ended up staying out of the house for almost 2 hours.

Cherry picking in Pathmark. Jersey City, yo. n____n;;

Got home to watch the Macy's fireworks like we usually do, and I sat down to watch Hana Kimi. They were showing the finale of My Lovely Sam-soon again, but I dragged myself away. My list of dramas to watch this summer is 20+. Uh. Help me?

I need to control my fandom. Ahaha?

I have a livetalk to wake up to tomorrow...later. I will wake up, I swear.
YOSH.

I really can't talk seriously. Can I?

well, this is strange

sarangei insa - seeya

Happy 4th of July, you guys. (: I wish I had some sparklers to play with. Might just be spending the day at home helping clean or something.

The finale of My Lovely Sam-soon had no closure. ): Sam-soon and Sam-shik are still a really cute couple, though. I wish they got married, but anyway. So cute. Mom admitted to my getting her sucked into it, so I'm pretty proud of myself. Don't know if that's something to be proud of, though. The people running the station don't have the ability to cut properly before the hilariously repetitive string of commercials. Going to miss watching, but I have a lot of dramas under my belt now. Hana Kimi and First Kiss are two of them, as well as past seasons that I've missed. Hana Kimi, ahhh~

I wrote up a to-do list. So far, there's 20. SO FAR. Looking at lists makes me feel helpless, like I'm never going to get anything done. I'll try, I guess.

Oh yeah. I woke up at 8:30 this morning, pretty amazed. Had a nice bowl of the porridge, but it gave me a stomachache a few minutes after I finished eating. Oh, why? It was so delicious. I just proceded to laze around my room and living room on the computer. M

My days at home are sleep - wake up - eat - computer - nap - eat - nap - tv - computer - sleep.
I AM PRODUCTIVE.

Ryohei dyed his hair. It's brown. And long. And has a random blonde streak in it. Yeah, um, I miss your old hair. I don't know. You are a cute gangster boy with an adorable face? ♥ But congrats on the 10 awards, you three.
Keita, you are looking miiiighty nice these days. Same for Ryu, who fell off the stage, onto a small platform and executed a nice fall-split-sit down on the stage. I love them.

I will not play Maplestory. I will start the to-do list?

midnight porridge

love is the greatest thing - w-inds.

As much as I want to listen to the whole single, I am restraining myself. But natsu matsuri is so pretty, I don't want to listen to radio rip. Oh well, nine more hours. I am going by Japan time. Hee.

Yergh, I finished mostly everything but cleaning up my hard drive, starting my LJ layout, reading books, doing summer work...okay, I'll stop before I get carried away like I know I will.

I wish I went to Sarah's house ): Cellphone, I blame you a lot, kay?

My mom and I watch My Lovely Sam-soon on a nightly basis nowadays. Tomorrow is the final episode. I can't wait~ I am really going to miss the series, I started on 11, but their characters grew on me! Anyway, Sam-soon was cooking porridge on the episode, and since they made porridge a few times on the show, I wanted to try it. So, halfway through the show, I go,

"Mommy, can we make porridge?"
"...why?"
"It looks yummy."

What kind of basis is that? Haha. After discussion about the episode, I learned how to make porridge! It is very yummy, I am telling you. And two teeny cups made so much, good lord, the pot was almost full. Instead of making it plain, we had ginger, chicken broth, and pepper. I do not know why, but I am really happy. I learned how to cook porridge! In an hour. Kind of long, ne? I AM REALLY HAPPY STILL ♥ SHE ALSO BROUGHT HOME YUMMY VEGGIE AND PORK BUNS FROM NYC. I feel so Asian, mom, ilu.

Between stirring and adding water, I was reading the AM New York from that morning. Scanning the first inside page, I found the weirdest article.

'Vampire' bird attacked

A peacock that roamed into a Staten Island Burger King parking lot was
savagely attacked by a man who vilified the bird as a vampire, animal-control
authorities and witnesses said.

Beaten so fiercely Thursday that most of his tail feathers fell out, the
bird was euthanized, said Richard Gentles, a spokesman for the city Center for
Animal Care and Control. "He was going crazy," said worker Felicia Finnegan, 19.
Asked what he was doing, she said, the bird beater explained, "'I'm killing a
vampire!'"

Employees called police, but the attacker ran when he saw them. Authorities
were looking for the attacker, described as being in his teens or early
20s.
(AP)

Heck yeah, I typed that for you all to see. And I swear it's real.
Poor bird. And I guess they'll never find the guy. Oh, I am putting too much thought into this.
My mom also got me a really pretty Nike sweater thing.

I will not get sucked into MS. Hopefully.

ergh.

deja vu - w-inds.

The past five days went fast. In a sense? Sal's party was fun; fooling around and being flaily with everyone that I dearly miss is good for my soul.

I saw Madzi twice - Thursday and Friday. Thursday was a kind of uneventful, but fun hangout. Mall on Friday where I realized that I will never go really fast on can't stop falling in love because i tend to not be able to breathe most of the time. That was scary. But, I came home with six books. Four for summer reading, yes I overdo it. Love Com is really good, and I love Mitch Albom a lot.

I got poked thrice in a ten minute period early Saturday morning at LabCorp. The lady couldn't find my vein, but the filipino guy did. Ergh, she poked me in the arm, and kept poking the inside of my hand with the needle. That feels so unpleasant.

Sunday was the Realista party I didn't go to. Congrats, though! I also altar served and watched Fr. Marty try to be a bird. Don't ask.

I have chores to do today. Ah. Clean clothes, clean heard drive or dad will spork me to death, and make layout.

And am mad that w-inds. was/is? in HK around the same time I was supposed to go last year. I recognized the place where the pictures were taken in the airport, too. We always sit there to rest on our 8-hr stopovers. OH IRONY.

I can't wake up early anymore. I got up 10:59 exactly.

You know what. It makes me sad that you've changed so much and I can't say anything about it. It's like you've grown up faster than me, or moved on, or something. And for some reason, it feels like you don't need me anymore, though you do always act like it. I just don't know. Kind of was inevitable, though.

About those chores...

ergh

imsomiac, bwah.

be my love - clazziquai

I can't sleep. As much as I try, I can't. Well, take the fact that I slept a little too much earlier, and I am trying now? Eh. I think I will be stuck here for a while. Oh, and my door is wide open since the air conditioner is sitting right outside. My dad insists on using it, even though I don't want to.

I watched My Lovely Sam-soon after channel-surfing repeatedly. I should have started watching earlier in the series, it is really cute! I also caught Liar Game on Sunday; unsubbed, though.

headache.

Oh! New Lead PV is out. umi is so cute, haha. Here, have a link, I'm too lazy to figure out this embedding thing. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6BMiowYve4

w-inds.'s new PV is really adorable, too!

i need to start watching my dramas before classes start up again, shouldn't i?

mistakes

I woke up at 8:30 today, around there. I fell back asleep around 9:30-10:00 or something. I slept straight through until 2 PM. I have never slept that long in a while. It feels strange. And I missed calls from the parents and bestie. Of course, my dad thought I was out. And misunderstanding came through. Oh well.

Sorry that I don't want to go out, you guys. I need a break. I feel better, though. A little bit. I might go out the rest of the days of this week. I don't know, I like staying at home. Haha, it's so weird. And I need time to like, er, ah. Can't explain it.

Mmm. :T

no more

I am not a freshman anymore.

That sentence is appalling. Let me have one year of everything again, please? To my dear senior friends, good luck in college, and good lord, what will I do without you guys? You all are some sort of amazing, really. Come back to HTHS one day, keep in touch? But yeah; Mike, Sal, Joaquin, Anthony, etc. ilusm. Memories will last a lifetime, no? I saw the pictures, and you look like you had a great time at graduation. I am totally going to miss you guys like you will never know.

In retrospect, this year was amazing. I don't know, according to someone, I have changed a bit. Hopefully for the better in others' eyes. Friends to last a good long while are here, and I'm good. Hey, I even learned a bit, too. I can't stop the global history textbook references from popping into my head! Oh, Ameruoso, ihusm.

So, Thursday was the Motown concert, no? Honestly, I thought it would be a sort of a drag because we were unprepared and the whole thing was rushed. Nevertheless, I still invited my parents and bestie. The morning was a mess of student council elections - congrats to our all-girl sophomore student council! Sarah (president), Olivia (vp), Anna (treasurer), and Danielle (secretary). I ended up hanging around the school for a bit after the elections - I already cleaned up my locker and just needed to bring things home. I missed the Junior 411 because of getting my transcripts checked (boo, i got a 4.33 gpa D:) and running around to get ready for the 1 PM show. Mind you, it was like 11:30 when we started preparing. I'm telling you, it was rushed. We got to sit in the house for the duration of the show, and it was amazing. Of course the first show was much more energetic, people from school were cheering for us. During the second, it was kinda eh. And I spent the duration of the second in 137, not in the theater. Okay, I didn't know. Nobody told me. Bishes. Overall, most fun show I've ever been in.

The last day of school was pretty uneventful. It was the last day I'd see my senior friends in school - you guys, come back! I miss you. Even though we were one of the classes that actually bothered to go to our assigned schedule, we did basically nothing. I was on my laptop for the whole day, infecting my class with w-inds.'s new PV, love is the greatest thing, and playing cubis like an addict. It's not amazing, really. I got a few people from my class to come over and watch me, and by lunch period, I beat level 30, and Rob was the happiest thing ever. Guys, I got to level 100, but after 50, everything repeats itself.

Riana, Rob, and I were singing to love is the greatest thing. somewhat. it got stuck in their heads. i am good. and they are amused by the boys.

the bus ride was full of:
"OH NO I AM A SENIOR." - gaby
"...I am a freshman again? how is that. XD" - sal
"I'm a junior...?" - juan
"sophomore what. can i be a freshman again?" - me
guys, we're old.

sean, naz, sarah, anna, riana, dylan, and i went to jean's house after school. rob went off with aaw. (you walked to newport, good lord.) riana came later with dylan and his new haircut. hi, haefner replicate, how are you. anna had to leave early. so we played cranium and card games. ate junk food while watching tristan and isolde. it is such a good movie, regardless of the fact that i fell asleep for 15 minutes while squished between sean and dylan. we hung out outside and just did nothing, haha.

i did nothing yesterday. i think. i mean, i wanted to go to the HTHS graduation. congrats again you guys! your pictures are filled with so much crack. and mike went to the rain concert. and shook his hand. and got a picture. and an autograph. *envyenvyenvy*

i need to catch up on my j-dramas. liar game is on tonight at 11-12 midnight, no way am i staying up that late. to crunchyroll i go! 'cause ryu and i are that awesome.

i am trying to make somewhat coherent plans for this week - my only full week of vacation before i go off to algebra II classes. boo.

freshman year, you were amazing. thank you.

sleep deprivation

I don't know. Usually, the 'hm, I will stay up until 4 AM' thing usually works fine. It's kind of backfiring on me now, and I find that if I sleep earlier, I will get more tired. That is not a pleasant feeling at all.

School, freshman year at least, is over in two days. One, if you consider that today is Friday, but my days are measured by the times that I sleep and the times I wake up.

Recently, I have been okay. I think. I feel horribly naive, and I know that I am. It's sad and disturbing that I like it, but it feels wonderful not to worry. I am aware that there are things to be worried about, though. I just choose not to.

Ah, I am ignorant. Confession is just the beginning of self-discovery?

I have urges these days. On the one-hour-and-a-half long bus ride from school, I craved pears. I crave dance lessons in a studio in New York. I crave math problems to wrack my brain. I crave work. Yet, at the same time, I don't want it because I know it will just produce a lot of more stress for me.

Personal feelings at the moment aside, my day was nice. I forgot to bring my laptop, but it mollified my fangirling to some extent. Killeen gave us a paper to solve, with questions on it that said, "4 = Q in a G" Most of them I did not get, leading to an empowering feeling of idiocy. I swum with Jean and Riana again for our 54-minute gym period. Steven finally came in after much yelling and contemplation on where his teenage-level testosterone has gone. The rest of the guys (Fawzy, Kuya, Chris, Rob) came in the pool area out of boredom and curiosity. There was a feeling of satisfaction when they all said, "Aw, I wish I brought my trunks." All because you did not want to swim with a certain person. Then Chris cannonballed into the pool with his jean shorts on. Crazy. My ears also popped repeatedly from diving.

Rehearsal. Was long and tiring and boring. I apologize in advance for any people's ears I kill tomorrow, I am very sorry. Our song needs some working on, however. The ride home was long. I went upstairs and saw Tito Jimmy, Tita (what is her name), Natasha, and Brandon for the last time for a long time. They are moving to Arizona, and Mark is losing his friends that are his age. Family friends, cousins, whatever. I said good-bye to them early since I went downstairs, and I almost started crying. I hate good-byes. They seem so final and absolute, as if you will never see the person again. That feeling is one of such melancholy.

I really dislike my outfit for tomorrow. I do not know anymore.

my brain cramped

pachebel's canon in d - my sassy girl ost

I am free. Not from school, but I have no more work to do! Right now, I'm really tired, like I usually am these days. I'd feel like I was wasting time if I went to sleep. I don't know, I feel as if I need to read something. Or play PS2. I don't know.

My 11 page report that I finished at 4 AM. Good god, I BSed one whole section, but it makes sense.

Today, we started out with volleyball and the such. Riana's been asking for a while to go swimming, and am I glad that I brought my swimsuit. I have not dove into a pool since last summer and it feels so good. Pretty nice to know that I can still freestyle too. Albeit the fact that I get tired too easily.

I turned red from the hot tub. Ah, it was so hot, but that didn't happen when I went to a hotter one with Alexa and Madz. Oh, life.

Riana, Jean, and I took our sweet time showering, changing, and drying our hair with the hand dryers. 30 minutes, to be exact, and we missed the early bus home. I cleaned out my locker at least, and found a shiiiitload of papers and scans from my history textbook.

I overslept on the bus, missed the stop with everyone else. Did not hear my phone ringing at home, so I missed the TORCH meeting.

Liiiiiiiiiife, why.
3 more days.

seriously confunded

your side - KAT-TUN

happy daddie's day. i handed a bag filled with non-work clothes, a beverage cooler, and a squishy pillow to my dad today from my mom and i. he liked the card the most.

(i really think i should scan that thing)
front: If a dad farts in the woods, can anyone hear it?
Dad: D:

inside: (all the poor little forest animals) YES! D:
Dad: phooooooooot. D:

...he laughed for five minutes straight. that was pretty refreshing to see him red-faced everytime i looked.

i think i am traumatized by church. halfway through the beginning of the mass, two people sit down at the end of our empty pew. it was ameruoso and his wife. lord god, i almost cried. really, first squeaked at my mom. she was so amused. and i'm just on the verge of crying because i am that traumatized by the sight of the history teacher that i hate in the same pew.

um, he has a wife.
he is religious. or something
they were fucking holding hands.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh WHAT THE FUCK
I AM SO TRAUMATIZED

i looked down for the whole duration of the mass. did not look up once. maybe. somewhere, i went,
"God, you hate me, don't you. cry."
i stomped home with my parents laughing at me as i was fuming over what had happened the past hour.
LIIIIIIFEEEEE YOU FAIL SO HARD DO YOU HEAR ME
oh, and x9237749 hell points awarded to me, yay.

we tried applebee's for lunch. full. so after much driving around, we settled at fiesta grill. ah, filipino food, how i have missed you dearly.

right now. i am trying to do report. with very limited information. cries. at least i got in touch with czander.

oh, happy belated nino, and the usual to madz.

pop it

because of you - ne-yo

only reason why this is on repeat is because i need to remember this routine for the next two weeks. *crosses fingers* here's to a coffeehouse!

routine, you ask? i went to a hip-hop class saturday with mike, joaquin, sal, and riana. the usual insanity ensued. i haven't 'properly', if that is possible, danced in years. and damnit does it feel good to hurt. i did suck badly during the first class, but i proudly earned my spot in the front during the second class. oh, and i'm 'love family'. all thanks to my japanese shirt that says 家♥族.
haha. there was this little girl, 9, named pika. amazing little kid i wanted to hug her a lot. dies. NINE.

i learned. a minute. in two classes. oh god. ryohei now i know what you talk about all the time i love you a lot. so now, i'm addicted to dancing, if only for a short while. i realize that it's something that i actually get, and it'd be a waste not to do anything.

i think. i like the non-self-conscious feeling it gives me. because i stop caring and i just do it.

rob and i finished the science project today. with much procrastinating and ned's declassified in the middle. haha, ned, we love you!

okay. study. for midterms. now.

hello there, old friend. please go away.

mmm.

i wish...

):

...actually, this wishing too much won't lead anywhere.

i watched them say bye

love is the greatest thing - w-inds.

5 people have said good night to me. i'm still awake.

my mind is in some unrest, and i have yet to figure it out.

however, inner fangirl is very happy. ryohei, i love you when you wear fitteds. maybe it's just me; it probably is. and the new single makes me happy, too.

what happened to me?

oh, and i guess i'll be switching from here to my livejournal. i guess this one is more of my rl one, then, right?

it is a habit

yorokobi no uta; kat-tun

i am too lazy to make a proper blog.
here was and is my weekend in bullet points:

- i like the school at 8 am on saturdays. it's quiet.
- hiked, developed a deeper hate for bugs
- cut off branches
- liked river it was pretty
- slept on bus ride home
- slept too much
- o, our kitchen is pretty
- my vocabulary died
- i did no homework at all. i am getting too good at this haha
- procrastinated
- won the wolf game, what. i am a bad wolf, ilu jackie and nicki
- got mad at internet for dying a lot

hokay. homework?

wtf

THIS IS RIDICULOUS.

I SWEAR.

My day was amazing, don't get me wrong~ Fried cheesecaks, picture taking, chorus, passing a global test.

BUT THIS IS FUCKING RIDICULOUS

We're a whole big unit of fandoms. Why in the hell target us.

degrees

i believe (piano) - my sassy girl

you know that show on abc, six or four degrees or something of the sort?

it's true. you can't go very far from people you know until you reach someone you know all over again.

good god. this is just appalling.

would you like a pizza slice?










my mom gave me a pizza box. there was a pedometer in it.
my morning is made. thank you, new york.
now i just have to fucking study.

oh, and hi.
i look like a j-rocker
or something.
or ryohei.
i'd like ryo better.

yeah, forget it. g'night.

barely

balloons - dbsk

i find it funny how i have time to post on three blogs.

back from a nice, procrastination filled four-day weekend. thinking about homework just makes me...ugh. my vocabulary has decreased tenfold!

the teachers were being especially bitchy today. sensei gave us a japanese test today, and i did okay. didn't feel like reviewing it, but i did a bit last night. oh well, for sure got one wrong. i thought i'd at least remember everything. oh, and i'm okay with global, given the fact that a lot of people in my class got by with 80s/90s. i'll settle with this, but i wonder what happened to my old study habits.

or state of mind. i miss it.

we had arcadium set up in the resource center for the day and i went during my free. the wii was being held up. a lot. i just ended up playing a lot of DDR and was late to algebra class with malcolm because we were killing can't stop falling in love - the speed mix. ha. i couldn't breathe. at all. can you say out of shape?

my haircut looks unflattering in pictures.

on to history. i will aim for a 90. i just need to memorize names. help me?

omgwtfbbqcurses!

FUCKING HELL

HAHA

I'M CURSED WITH A SHORT ATTENTION SPAN
AND PROCRASTINATION

FUCK

filipino barbeque

mark doing his usual "omg i hate you" whining

The lights just flickered on and off. Eh, scary. And I experienced Mark campaigning for a plasma-screen and a PS3. "Plasma is only 800! PLEASE."

Good lord.

So, I compiled a to-do list earlier, and I did nothing of it, yay! I'm working on the powerpoint right now. Good god, JE is...damn.

Our backyard barbeque was really good, though. Mmm, chicken, rice, pork, crab, salad, fruits.

obscured vision

scorpio; trax

While watching my DBSK dramas last night on my iPod, I was talking to my mom. She concluded that I needed a haircut after some circumstances that I will not mention at the moment. I really don't want to have to explain, really. But almost a year without a proper haircut? Horrendous; yes, no?

We made an appointment with one of my dad's friends who works at the salon at Newport Mall. So, I was shaken awake at 7 am, then 8, then 9. Much arguing ensued, I can tell you that. About 9:30, I complacently climbed into the car, armed with my stack of Junon because my mom was telling me not to get my hair cut as short as Ryohei's. Okay, really, I want short hair so I can just laugh at myself. Or something like that.

We agreed upon Maki Horikita's length (the girl in Kurosagi), and Ryohei's or Teppei's bangs. After about an hour of listening to GMA, a filipino televison channel, and hearing that JJ was being kidnapped, "NINANG WHAT DO WE DO OMG WONDER TWINS!"

My hair was done and it looked awfully cool. It's straight and shiny, albeit puffy, but I like it a lot. Except I'm trying to show people, but I can't get it the right way. Frustrated~ Hehe, but I have huge, huge bangs. It's like a j-boy's!

...No words can express my joy. Really.

My laptop keeps tempting me and I keep going on the internet. I have a weakness for this thing. Good thing is, I figured out that w-inds. was at the VMAJ. DBSK won an award~! But w-inds. weren't nominated, just presenters. They met a lucky fangirl, though! So so so lucky.

Today I talked the longest I have on aim in a while. Mmm. And yesterday, I was talking to Miso and Michael on the phone. They're pretty fun to talk to.

Okay, okay, work, I know.

long weekend

the construction guys going, "zoom zoom zooooooom" right outside the door to my room.

Four. Day. Weekend. That's freaking what I needed, thank god. But here's the drawback, I need to do three projects, one of which is memorizing a speech, two poster-type things, begin final exam reviews, and do homework in general. Somebody find me a loophole in all of this work. plz?

Everyone's been saying that I look horribly tired lately; I still haven't been getting much sleep. I need to work harder to get my history grade up. Mr. History Teacher is still trying to fail me, or my thoughs are horridly biased because I do not favor him in any way possible. Excuse me, but since when did handing in an outline not directly to you merit a check? ihusm.

I checked how much space was left on Ryohei out of curiosity. A little more than 2gb, really. It's probably less now. Good lord, Ken has only 50 gb left, too. Changmin has 10 gb of unnecessary fat on him from clearing Ryohei up a few weeks ago. And I finally charged Kibum, he's been abused in my bag for the week. Ryohei and Ken are dying, I need to make backups. I meant to do it yesterday, but you know. I doubt I'll get to work today, either.

Riana had the idea of taking Kuya, Rob, and I out on the lawn in front of the school yesterday during free. It was so sunny and windy, and I got that feeling while lying down on the grass that I could havejust floated away there. It was amazing. All of that adjacent to 1&9, the major highway outside the school. Oxymoron!

During archaeology, Czander and I finally found something. It was part of a skull; the jaw with some of the teeth still intact. But we're behind, we still have a good 2-3 cm left to dig down in this part. Connor and Joe are going so fast, though. And they found a lot of stuff. omg but i keep arguing with czander stfu lol i want to get done so we can start new paperwork argh

One day, I'm going to buy a telescope so I can look at the stars and the moon. Sarah and Rob were hanging out with me on my porch at around 8. They actually got me out of my house. It's also a pain to get to my front door; everything's a maze of furniture and paint. My walls are the color of butter pecan ice cream. Mmm. I feel like painting my room, too. My house is so modern now o:

I was searching around crunchyroll yesterday, and I found a korean teaching tv show. Oh god, it's so amusing, but I learned how to say "Hello. My name is ~. Nice to meet you!" Now that makes four...five? Yeah, five. I fell asleep with the laptop loading liar game, though. hanayome to papa, i need to watch that, too!

I'm not getting any work done.

slowly counting weeks

Wednesdays, wednesdays. I made up a science exam first period. Mmm, my bad memory is beginning to kick in, I couldn't recall some of the facts that I needed. Pitiful, really, it was a fill-in test.

What made everyone's day was that Mr. History teacher was out today on jury duty. Yes, jury duty. Didn't even think that he had the mind to go to jury duty. He made our day by not coming to work. Thank you.

Volleyball's becoming repetitive and somewhat boring now. I don't want to play tennis, I want to go swimming. Thing is, my class doesn't.

Oh, and our summer concert might get sacked for lack of preparation. It would be the chorus' decision, too. I mean, it's in 3 weeks, and we're nowhere near ready like we planned at the beginning of the year. God.

Recording American Idol for my parents right now. They're out shopping for another light fixture since our kitchen is almost done. It's actually really nice.

I feel so boring, haha. Lemme attempt homework, hm?

multicultural day :D

What a good day.

I woke up and had to finish my outline. Hey, I had a good three hours-something of sleep. Finished outline while downloading videos. Thank god I finished about a half hour before I had to leave for the bus stop. I have so many DBSK and w-inds. videos on my ipod, it's getting fuller by the day. I know I fell asleep on the bus at some point because I kept watching videos.

I skipped homeroom to get ready for the performance. It was periods 1 and 2, and then 8 and 9. there was so much energy everywhere, it was amazing. the freshmen and juniors watched first. we went on fifth, i think. and after all the flailing and stretching in the hallway, we went in, marko did his speech (dedicated to PJ and Junpei), and we danced. we messed up a little bit, but oh well. i skipped forgot to go to 3rd period. history. i thought i ws just going to stay at the booth for the rest of the day, but i didn't. that part of the mall area was so lively, though. i went to archaeology fourth, and the guys in my class kept raving to me. while we were digging, czander exploded a dirt clod in my face. was totally not a rock.

stupid. at drama, everyone was raving. still. it feels good, though~! i actually went up, er, because i felt like it? or there was this rush of "hey, i'll take a chance today" going through. our sweatshirts came, too. they look so nice; i'm getting mine thursday. i was playing ddr with malcolm during sixth in the mall area. my school had ddr, omg. i kept failing all over the mat.

our last performance was so much better. i wasn't as nervous and we didn't mess up as much. i love when kat came out with the cutout of junpei, lol. everyone was clapping. it's been a great year with the club, and i want to be leader one year before i graduate. i guess it's a tradition now in club; we'll have to pass it on to the underclassmen.

i got some well needed rest, and i have to start studying now. for a delayed opening, today was horribly long. i need to bring my camera, too. there were some good pictures i could have taken.

(yes, photshopped because the original was horribly blurry)
find me? haha. and yes, not the usual asian peace sign. junpei was the only native japanese in their picture last year and he was doing a thumbs-up. so we do the same.

next year, definitely. maybe with a few more performances?

not again, not again.

sorafune; TOKIO

Today has been

fuck.

Mr. History teacher gave us a 'quiz' (I swear it was a test) today, and er, whilst most of my class did well, I failed with flying colors. It ranges around a 40 to 60 for my grade. The essay, piece of cake. I can't remember these things anymore, my short-term, not to mention my long-term memory is turning to crap as is my mental state when I'm awake. Not that I'm crazy or anything, just worn out.

Horridly disappointed though.

performing tomorrow at multicultural.

secret one

I wish I could be more than just a forgettable face in the crowd.
Really, I do. Though, part of it is my fault.
Mmm.

sick

we can make it; arashi

Guh. -__-;

For some reason, even though I'm horridly sick, I'm still happy. You know how I've been not sleeping for a while, right? So, around 12 midnight Friday morning (yeah, still awake.) my throat started hurting. My mom warned that I would get sick because I sleep from 3-5 AM usually now. I know it's bad, I do! But I can't stop it now, it's a bad, bad habit. By the time I went to sleep, it was hurting more. When I woke up, it hurt to talk. So, throughout the day, it kept getting worse and worse. I got a stomachache from eating at lunchtime, too. It wouldn't stop hurting either, until I ate some chocolate at the dance show. I guess I'm taking dance for my elective next year, there's nothing else I'm interested in. Just have to change it now~ Dance show was so good, though.

it's one of those times where i wish i thought as deeply as my friends, and just didn't get the blatantly obvious things in life. it makes me think how much i need to grow up, in some way.

Anyway, I slept on the bus, woke up, throat hurt so bad. I got home and told my mom that I was sick, and she told me to just go to sleep. I have a new record: 6:30 PM - 6:30 AM. This morning, I could barely lift myself out of bed because I was so tired. And had a runny nose. And a headache. So, settled with watching Ageha tour until 9. I talked for a few minutes, and I sounded like Travis. (HAHA STFU YOU GAIZ) He's a boy from school that sounds...like a girl. I sounded like a guy going through puberty~ good god. Told my parents I was sick while smiling and bouncing up and down. I'm so retarded. My dad was scared. I swear, I haven't been sick in so long. It feels good to be sick, though, as weird as it sounds. I spent my whole day doing nothing. Ha, beat that procrastination.

I'm going to start my homework eventually. Japanese is getting to my head. I think of some of these sentences in the language. I forgot everything this week. My wireless internet has been horrible, too. I'm kinda scared of going on the computer because I know that I'm going to get stuck.

Aha, I'm sick~ i sniffle every few seconds, grab a tissue, sniffle again. complaints are so easy to go through, really.

did the streetlights really sparkle?

勿忘草; w-inds.

This is becoming such a bad habit. What is it, 3 AM again? It's having an adverse effect on me, too. Mainly my fault.

Naps and procrastination are bad for the last five weeks of school. I want out. Now.

ama'jin.

sometimes, i wish i knew how to sort out my life. you know, one part school, one part social, one part everything else that's needed for a content me. wish i was like that.

i'm working on my outline due tomorrow, finally. i actually liked getting the "what?! you didn't do your homework?" etc. looks today. nice and refreshing. i'll stick with this right now. i'm floating, baby, i got an unbelievable 100 and 95 duo for the recent history test. but i'll work hard for the next one, for sure.

sensei handed me a pile of worksheets for Japan Bowl next year. tell you the truth, i'm excited. not the same feeling for the work though. ugh, te form?!

wfl forums is back. the forum that lighted my w-inds. fandom is finally back. i am so happy, but i'll be stuck on the internet again. ha, whaa~at?!

parents are out at ate's graduation reception at home. congrats for graduating college~! good luck.

drama i/a was so amusing. we played guesstures, which i haven't played since 10 years of age? ffttt. arters put me in charge of scoring, and i do not know how to tally. HAHA. so uh, there were the ama'jin ninjas (with confused whats?! from soto and jenny.), the purple mangoes (my team. travis said 'skanks' and arters yelled. bah.), and the cuban cigars (one word: czander). so amusing.

la, homework. i am amazed by my broadband internet, really.

ah haha.

I DIDN'T DO THE PROJECTS I SAID I WAS GOING TO DO AGAIN. And I'm in full-on panic mode. Going to Church in an hour or so, too. ahhhh.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOMMY. Sorry Tatay and I bought your present at Rite-Aid, I told him that we should have gone to the mall. We should order from Applebee's later.

So. Madzii was here for more than an hour earlier. I caught her up with the fandom, and we talked for a little bit. Mark's got a PSP. Ryohei's still in love with Cameron Diaz. I haven't done my homework (except for science notes, but who's counting?)

DBSK fandom is dangerously going up, albeit very slowly. Very, very slowly.

Oh boy.

overdoing it.

cross my heart; the rocket summer

So. I have the whole weekend to do homework. HAH. Like I'm actually going to do it, the freaking laptop's in my room. I really wish finals would be finished soon. School decided to postpone it, and I have more time to worry.

Surprisingly, I took a break yesterday. *collective gasp* Went to Sarah's house for Naz's surprise fifteenth birthday party. For two hours, there were teenagers milling around Sarah's small kitchen cooking a delicious array of food. We took a trip to cityline before that. The Fil-Am store makes me so happy. I want to go back and get a frozen coconut drink again.

Party was nice. I haven't hung out with my friends outside of school in such a long time, and my parents actually realized that. They let me stay until before 11. I have no idea what I did yesterday; it was a mess of rushing, buying, squealing over food and rubber ducks, rolling sushi, "IT'S HOT MO'FUCKERRR D:", off-key happy birthday song, cupcakes, swelteringly hot houses, cool porches, pokemon, ice cream, wii, and barely any pictures.

We all have a tendency to forget when it's something like yesterday. Take a party a la fun buffet, kmart, and petland.

I woke up at 4:30 this morning to the garbage trucks and a horrid stomachache. I went back to sleep around 7 after the computer again. I'm so addicted to the internet. At piano earlier, there was a spider on the keyboard. I hate spiders, and I kept messing up notes while playing because it was crawling on the keys. So scary~

Mother's Day is tomorrow. Haha, yay.

failed

kitto daijoubu; ARASHI

I have been dragged into yet another JE group. Ah, why? They're all colorful and rainbow-y and they love each...other. Yeah. Er. I'm watching First Message concert clips on youtube, so I'm fine. w-inds. were so cute when they were 15-16. So little and aw. Give you my heart makes me want to just...aw. Be young again, you three. Do domething acoustic or acapella for concerts. Come on~

Failed in the sense of life, not school. I stabbed myself with my mechanical pencil by accident for the first time today. I have a habit of holding it in my mouth when I'm not using it, and we were in the media center. I think I was in the middle of wanting to hit somebody or laughing, and I swung my arm around. The back of my hand hit the tip of the pencil hard; drew back and saw a little hole in my hand.

It hurts a lot. There's graphite in my bloodstream, huh. It's swollen and infected, I think. Ow.

I watched the drama coffeehouse after school, just because Ms. Arters wanted us to. Hey, I was curious as well. Actually, it went by pretty fast for an hour and thirty minutes. The monologues made Jean and I come dangerously close to tears, at which Steven was laughing at her. I'm happy they didn't call me up to do anything. They're pretty believable, too; they tried to make us believe that they were fighting, but I believed it until Ms. Arters got into the fight. Observant? I had a good time, anyway.

I have the habit of falling asleep in the bus near my stop now, so I'm trying to be careful. I always sit by the window, so it's like sleeping in the sun. Remind me to do that this summer.

Yet again, it's near midnight and my usual situation with homework is still here. At least it's a little better; I'll start worrying on the weekend.

I'm just sitting here watching the performance, and I'm smiling. Smiling to the point that my heart feels a little bit lighter in a while. Mmm, I can't say anything to that. This is wonderful.

Hi, textbooks, how are you doing?

[edit]
Apparently, I have something to do with Kyohei Kaneko. Michi was searching his picture on google, and MY XANGA PICTURE came up on the fourth page.

J-boy? LOLLL. PRICELESS!

and yet again.

ZAN; Kizuna

Akiko~ You rock so much for showing this band to me; they're so cute, I want to meet them, too! I need to take a trip to Brooklyn's botanical gardens next year. Sakura blossoms are so pretty, and I'd have a day with my camera. Haven't been there since 5 years of age.

I woke my mom up this morning and nagged her for my straightener. My hair is so cool and straight I like playing with it, it just goes back to how it was before and asjlksdga; Asian straight hair! Jean kept playing with it during math, haha. I wish I could straighten it every day. once i figure out to get a picture up with my retarded memory card~

So, last night I went through the usual routine of wake up - study - sleep - wake up again - homework - sleep - wake up again - scribble - study- sleep - wake up - panic about not studying. I finished my Japanese homework at 3 in the morning, too. I STILL NEED TO DO IT BECAUSE I WAS SLEEPING FROM 6-9. Guh.

I actually did well in today's history test. breee~zed through the fill-ins for once. I was ecstatic; Mr. History Teacher, you're not getting me down this time. Even though you gave us two 20-page outlines due in less than two weeks.

Volleyball without Doris. Kid, get better, our class is missing one person, and it's so weird. We won 5 out of 5 again, playing with the juniors. We're used to our 'ghetto volleyball' version during gym that we had to adjust to the new rules. Heh. So, we need to schedule a pool day soon; I want to go swimming! I'm diving into the deep end of the pool, ffft. I miss swimming.

Ryohei, I am going to hit you over the head. Don't tell the fangirls that you three are recording something; on second though, plz do. Boy, it better be a single. He's like Keita, "...I can't say anything about it --;" no, i want a new w-inds. release.

WE STARTED FACTORING IN MATH I AM SO HAPPY. And I officially signed up for Algebra II for the summer; I need to pass the test though. While we were cramming during lunch, I was squealing over the prospect of actually getting to calculus. I. Am. A. Math. Geek.

I had a bagel drenched in butter for breakfast. That was so good. guh. bagel. oh, and i told rob that his fly was open, and he was like, "yeah...the zipper broke, see?" I think that looked wrong from the other table. So then he stood up and called to Jean, going, "HEY JEAN XYZ." And she was so confused. So then, me, immersed in my fandom, goes:

trisha; OH HEY YOU KNOW IF RYOHEI SAW HIS GIRLFRIEND'S FLY OPEN, HE'D TAKE PICTURES WITH HIS CELL?!
riana, elena, and rob; ...wtf?! that's wrong.
trisha; ...so basically he's taking pictures of her crotch?
rob; ...WHAT.
riana; OH SO HE IS STRAIGHT!
trisha; ...*dead of lol*

...those are my wonderful wednesday mornings.

I'm just happy right now; i'm being so lazy. and it feels so riiiight. I have a quiz and I have not studied~ The kitchen is almost done, too. It looks smaller than it was before, that's wrong.

one pile, two pile, red pile, blue pile of homework.

top secret; w-inds.

I need to learn how to prioritize. I spent the past four, yes, goodness, four, on the internet and not doing homework. Yet, I did contemplate how much excessive studying I attempt on my part.

Procrastination is unavoidable! The government should proclaim it the next epidemic in the populace. Heck, maybe the U.N. could get involved. As much crap that I'm spewing out onto my blog right now, the world wouldn't be all good without our good, old, lazy selves.

I wrote a header! It's a big improvement. I feel like sporking Mr. History Teacher because two outlines in two weeks plus pre-final studying will lead me to sporking myself. Spork.

Spork. Spork. I am undoubtedly amused by that word right now, and am immediately reminded of my dear mom asking, "Chy? What do you call those spoon and forks put together?" "A spork?" "Ohhhhh. SPORK. (insert happy-omg-i-remember-hahaha laughing here)"

And I laugh along.

Verbals and grammar, you are a bunch of guh, go away now. Thank you.

Stir textbooks, worksheets, and other school-related material in a big pot filled with worry and a heaping helpful of procrastination. Every few hours, add a pinch of fandom and giggling. Usually finished in the wee, almost dawn-cracking hours of the morning. You have got my study habits in a little recipe, thank you very much.

And now, I feel like I've gained some sort of literary license. Right.

"good hustle!"

be my love; clazziquai

For the longest time, I've been wanting an excuse to use 'good hustle!' I've fallen in love with playing volleyball in school. I'm biased, yes, sort of, because my team is amazing. Hey, but I have to give the other team credit, they've been improving. Only one loss so far, haha.

However, in recent games, it's been so breakneckingly close to each other. Like, 20-20, and then we have to win by two. There was this one time where we actually went up to 27. It was so nerve wracking, it kept getting tied, and we kept missing, but we won. My serving has gotten worse, but I can actually hit the dang ball over the net now. Kind of. I mean, I dive sometimes, but hey. I can hit the ball, I just have to make it go forward, not up.

soooraaaaaaan bushiii. Multicultural's on the 22nd. We just seriously sorted out everything today. Ah, I can't forget some things because we added it on after watching the performance from last year. The Japanese exchange student from last year, Junpei, FLEW WHEN HE JUMPED. guh. i could have sworn he looked kinda like ryu, but not really. the hair? So goood~ We decided that we're dedicating the performance to PJ, who's sick (get better, kid) and Junpei.

I want an exchange student next year. SRSLY WAT. Last year they had a boy from Korea and Junpei.

We had another lock down drill during club. If it was real, we would have died with the loud sneezing, coughing, laptop pinging, giggling, haha. Being in the Japanese room for the lock-in is horrible~

I've been thinking; I really need to get over to New York one weekend with Mike because I want to take a dance workshop. Pfft, yes, I haven't danced in years, and who the hell knows how my hip-hop is because I never tried it before. But still, I wanna try it. Terrified, though. So terrified. They're so cool and ahh.

I feel so stressed out and shdjahsdf. I think it's because I think I'm not doing well in school. My brain is doing weird things to my body again, so I have to change the way I think again.

I'm going to be sleeping really late for the next few weeks. I just died in the bus earlier; I slept at 4 AM. I didn't want to sleep early, which is weird because I need the sleep.

I hate the particle に. fadgashdlaf with the sentences.

sunday afternoon

this love; big bang

They invited me upstairs. I WANT TO PLAY POKEMON. AND WII. I'll finish the history of Russia and weather, though. And a chapter of Japanese. I go through a chapter of Japanese per week, by homework. Haha. Keita, I'll beat you to learning English.

Probably not.

So, talking to one of my friends on Livejournal, Teej, I have named my electronics. Cell phone's Changmin, iPod's Kibum, HD's Ken, and laptop's Ryohei. I feel so spechul. Ryohei has less than 400 MB left, so I have to go work on that for the next few weeks or so. BUT, Ken is still in my living room. So, uh.

And so begins the endless gigglefits.

I finally joined dbsg on livejournal, and my DBSK fandom has skyrocketed. Junsu and Yunho are amazing at dance. Yunho. Guh.

The kids running up and down the stairs are going to hurt themselves.

I served for the second time this month this morning. I love serving with Kendric and Michael, fifth and sixth grader. Wah, they're so cute and flaily. Michael got taller, d'aw.

fufufu. Back to (trying) to study.

Inferior.

Stupid girl, what have you done. This is what you get for pushing everything away again.

Go back on the internet, since it's the only you got right now.

cinco de mayo.

stay close, don't go; secondhand serenade

I have no understanding of Spanish whatsoever. Though today does remind me of a Dora episode I saw when I was 6. Ergh.

I slept at 3 AM, woke up at 9 AM. I felt so refreshed, ate breakfast, played piano, took a inhumanely long shower, and procrastinated some more.

Saturdays are lovely days. After piano and a mini Reese's, I got dragged to Lowe's to pick out some things for the new kitchen. I really want to see what it looks like when it's done. Picking out tiles is a strenuous experience. Ha. I was playing with the doorbells, too. Did you know they can ring different tunes? I played one and it had 'Jingle Bells,' or some other Christmas carol. How quaint. I was playing with them for a good, long time while staring at the water fountains.

So, I got the JUNON May Issue last month, and translations are up. I bought it because I read "deeto manyuaru" (date manual) on the cover. Ryuichi and Keita are sweethearts. As for Ryohei, I have an overwhelming urge to take one of my books and smack him repeatedly on the head with it. Picky liar.

Love him, still. Really. A sweetie, still. Though you know, if I dated him, he'd break up with me. Multiple times. :x I pick on the boy too much. Oh, life, sweet, complicated life.

My laptop's hard drive has less than 533 MB left on it. My external hard drive is sitting underneath the rubble of a fridge door, and I don't feel like crawling to get at it. I have the urge for more music, as usual, but I can't do anything. I'm so lazy. I have to empty that thing out, too. There's so much crap and repeats on it. Speaking of music, I've been listening to acoustic and alternative and whatever my friends listen to. It makes me somewhat okay inside. That's perfectly fine.

Oh, and my excursions in random dieting had paid off. I lost 10 pounds from x. What a concept, getting smaller.

Hey, look, homework.

the clock tells me it's night.

more than a love song; augustana

I feel freaking blind without my glasses on. My tired old eyes need a break. Old, right.

Today was a half day; the water main broke down at the construction site again, and no water in the school. Again. Second time this week, but we actually got out. We were in Ameruoso's class when we were discussing it. "Send vibes into the cosmos to have school closed~ VIBES. Why are you raising the roof?" What in the heck was that? Ameruoso knows so many 'modern' things, yeah? So, uh, we got out early. Bus rides with the windows open on a nice day feel so surreal. Most of my friends traversed to Bayonne to watch Spiderman 3. Some part of me says that I should have gone, but I wouldn't have been able to. I just feel like crap nowadays.

There's a lot of stuff to do on this computer. It's just so pitiful.

My week was good. Not great, but hey. Monday and Tuesday night was filled with being cranky, bitchy, and working on a mosaic. It came out okay, but it's kind of messed up because it's in the doorway of the classroom. I flew a kite on Monday. I haven't done that since I was five, and even so, I can't remember that. When was it so hard to do that? And run. I guess I'm really that out of shape. We were watching Gokusen after-school. Something compels me to punch Jun in the face when he yells in dramas.

Wednesday, I caught up on sleep at home. The hour of volleyball was good, too. I dove for the ball, and you know what? It went over. HA. I'm not that bad. We had a lock-down that day, too. I was almost sitting under the table in Ms. Ibrahim's room. Riana and I fell asleep, or as much asleep as being squished lets you. I ate breakfast in the morning, actually.

Freshman came Thursday. The bus was packed, the school was full of new faces. I looked, and realized that I'm getting up there. I'll be a sophomore next year, and I really am terrified somewhat of that concept. Slowly, it'll come to me. Just let me survive this long next month of freshman year.

Math teacher realized that I should be in Geometry this year. Something of the sort. I wish I was, but I can't do anything of it.

Lately, I've been feeling tired and out of it all the time. I know I should be working, but I feel as if I always have more work than everyone else. Throwing things out of proportion. I could be, I wouldn't know, even though I'm talking about myself.

Here's to the next 6 weeks of freshman year left.

painted.

HIGH G.K LOW PV; GReeeeN

What in the heck, these kids are so cute. I want to be able to dance like them!

Anyway. I finished all my work in computer early again. I have a lot of homework to do when I get home. I have a science test later, too. I need to study for that. This morning, I crawled under the broken fridge door and the tablecloth covering my laptop desk to get the charger.

I don't want to go home. That means that I have to do homework, then. I haven't had anything (as in plans) or anything else for the last few weeks. I have no life~

I painted my nails black. It looks so weird because my hands are chubby. My henna started to fade, too. It took me a good 3 hours or so to paint them, haha, wtf? I'm not inclined to self-beautifying. Or nail painting. With my retarded left hand. Yay?

The freshmen came yesterday. Apparently, there's one that looks like me. I'd like to see that. Peter's on our bus, buy Mary and Shannon are on the other one. I'm mad that some people are going to have to take another bus next year too. Yesterday, the bus was so full. Sarah, Jean, Krasti, and I were all sitting in a three seater. Four to a three.

I'd rather not think about homework. I still have wednesday and thursday to get off my head. Guess I'm going on again after school.